ho-k so,

I found out that my BP card is gone. Whether I lost it or it's stolen is still up for grabs. I have the reciept for the last time I used it, but, no number. I got teh number to the card place and they told me that my balance was 208 DOLLARS OK, SO IT'S STOLEN! (though it could be a small possibility that it was me, one of my bills has gotten up to 118.00 before, so im not entirely ruling it out. I tore my car apart looking for it and checked the pockets of all my pants...NOTHING not in wallet or purse. I went to yellowpages.com and looked up the address on the reciept. I found the number, called, and was told that tehre was one tehre at some point (hopefully around the 17th, like I told him) and by the cashier number (006), I should talk to "Kevin", who works from 6 am to 11. GRAND If that little fucker is forging my signature, then I'll personally drive back there and compare reciepts, then shoot him in the heart after stealing 208 dollars from his pocket...hey he could carry the cash...it could be that easy. I reported teh card stolen tonight, and they'll send me replacements...well, what happens when the old bill comes in? Even If I have the receipt for my last payment, will they believe me? My dad says that with stolen cards, you have to pay at least like, 50 or 60...now that I think of it, thats what my bill would be around anyway, if it hadnt been stolen.... I'm still pissed, ok ok ok LIFE LESSON LEARNED...im taking some nyquil and conking out...grrrrr..

J

WELLLLL..IT's been like what, a year? So much has happened. I broke up with Nick last summer, met Jason, a 24 year old that worked with me with no criminal record and a career of his own. It's so much healthier for me. He cleans businesses and he just got a contract with the restaurant we worked at. He's going to be earning around 50K a year, and hes just starting. He wants to eventually hire people and branch out to lawn care and communications. He said I could do his advertising...

 Nick went back to jail Nov. 11th for failing a breathalizer...and his mom kept it from me so I wouldn't be upset. I WASNT UPSET, AND IT WAS THE GREATEST FEELING OF EUPHORIA EVER!!! I dont care about him anymore. I tried to save him, but I've finally come to the conclusion that its hopeless. BEsides, there's a good chance that I'll be living on Long Island with my dad's cousin (Aunt Marion) and working in TIMES SQUARE at Conde Nast for an advertising internship!! I'm still nervous, but psyched just the same. I'm 20 now, and trying to change. Im rushing a sorority next week just for the hell of it, and I was approached in the mailroom by one of the cheerleading captains. She saw my white cheer shoes from sr. year, and asked if I would like to observe some of their practices, go to tumbling classes and tryout in March. I thought, What the hey" I'm gonna do it. It'll be busy for me for awhile, but I think I'm actually getting my shit together. I go to get my haircut tomorrow (just a trim, I'm growing it out). Everyone went to Maggie's cabin in Ashville for her b day. THere was no room in the car, so I couldnt go. It's ok, I cleaned and redid my dorm room. I'll add a pic of me and Jason at the end of this. Well, I'm going to watch the rest of Gilmore girls and read a little....Then go to the Get Real With SAO movie night...(oh yeah, I'm in Sigma Alpha Omega Christian Sorority too...) The picture with the girls is Ashley, me, and my roommate Betsy!

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